Binging and bulimia

Well that sucked

Don't know why I am posting this, but this is suppose to be jorunal. So today I did something dispicable, something I have given alot of friends shit for. I threw up on purpose after spluring on poutine. I ate a large poutine at work, and went to sit down...I felt so guilty I went to the washroom, stuck my finger down my throat and threw it all back up. I am ashamed of this, but also glad I did, at least most of the calories are gone from the poutine. I still feel full though and think there might still be some left...its tempting to go finish and make sure its all gone. I feel disgusted with myself, with binging like I did, for doing what I did as a result, just disgusting in general. It was my fault today for not packing a lunch. Im not sure if I feel sick from throwing up, or from the fries that are still in there. I honestly feel sick as a dog right now *sigh* Im going to make sure I wake up in time to pack food, I really dont want to fall into the trap for splurging than making myself throw up.